My posting this month has been even worse than usual. I am not sure why. I feel really stressed by my classes that started in March. I know that is at least part of it. Just when I think I get one class on the right track, the other one is totally not where I think it should be to do what I have planned. I get that one straightened out, and then the first one gives me problems again. This is week 4 of an 8-week course, so this roller coaster won’t continue too much longer. I don’t really see it ever getting easy, though. The students are at too many different levels. What is appropriate for my non-reading students doesn’t work well for my students who read but are afraid to speak. It’s a challenge balancing everything out. And most of the time I feel pretty good about what we are doing. But it takes a lot of thought and planning.
I also teach an online class that just started last week. I had to finish getting it ready and then deal with all the inevitable first week questions and uncertainties. I have been teaching this class for a long time, and it isn’t terribly time-consuming, but it is just one more thing to think about. For some reason right now, anything that requires thought seems to keep me occupied far more than it should.
And my husband has been out of town for most of the last 6 weeks, working on a house we own but hope to sell some day. That means he isn’t here to do all the tasks he usually does. He is great about making my life super easy on the days I teach — when he is here. I have really noticed his absence! I think, too, that not having him here to counterbalance my work stress has been a big part of it. He isn’t here to remind me that I don’t need to worry about things as much as I have been.
There have been a lot of other extra activities this month, too. Nothing bad, but just adding to my feeling of being over-extended. I just can’t seem to focus on any subject long enough to feel like I have anything to say that is worth posting.
It all sounds pretty lame when I read it here. Guess I need to stop making excuses and get back to writing!